I am here in Peachtree City, GA right now, visiting my 90 year-old
grandmother and almost 89 year-old grandfather. I have fondly called
them MeMe and PaPa since I was little. My grandmother recently broke her
upper left leg around a repaired hip break last year and I came to
bring some good cheer and let her know how much I love her; as well I
came to be a helping hand with the family. As I saw her in the rehab
facility Friday night, I was reminded how frail life had become again
for her. She has lived a long life and seen so much.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 ESV
"For
everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to
pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to
break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a
time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to
refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to
keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time
to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to
hate; a time for war, and a time for peace."
The initial shock of
seeing MeMe suffering physically and emotionally is freshly etched in my
mind and is unsettling in my heart as a grand-daughter and as a mental
health counselor. I want to take her pain away and I want to be able to
tell her she can come home and be with her family. But I can't. She
needs the time to heal. She wept and I wept with her. There is a time to
mourn and grieve the loss of independence, the pain of being alone in a
care facility and there is a time to love and to embrace as I lay next
to her in the bed yesterday afternoon snuggling with her as she took a
nap. I'm not ready for the time to die yet.
I suppose God will
prepare me for that season, in its time, and as well for my grandma. In
the meantime, there is a time for everything...don't let these moments
of here and now slip you by. Life is too short. When we have
opportunities to grieve, it is important to experience them right when
they are happening so that it is not stuffed down inside ourselves or
prolonged. It will help us in the long run when those final moments come
and death takes our loved ones. Our grief is only temporary in the
grand scheme of life. Death has been overcome. And when you have time to
tell stories of yesteryear - LAUGH - even if it makes you cry! I think I
will be on a bit of a roller coaster with my emotions while I am here,
but I am okay with that...this is life ...and my time for everything
with my MeMe and PaPa.
I thank You God for these precious moments in time and to be a participant in them!

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